Irrfan Khan’s wife Sutapa Sikdar opens up about losing her husband, saying, ‘Did I do something wrong?
India lost legendary actor Irrfan Khan died over two years ago and the void he left in the hearts of the audience can never be filled again. The actor died of cancer and ever since his presence on the big screen has been tremendously missed.
Irfan’s wife Sutapa recalled his death
One of the finest actors, Irrfan Khan, not only made a mark in the Hindi cinema industry but also gave spectacular performances in Hollywood. Well, it’s no secret that Irrfan excels in every role he was given, and it would linger in our minds for days or perhaps months after watching the film.
Talking about the actor’s family, his wife Sutapa Sikdar has still not been able to part ways with his medical files. She recently revealed that she still goes through them and wonders if she could have done something more or if she made a mistake during his treatment.
Moving forward, the Karwaan actor’s wife shared about the struggles she has been facing while coping with Irrfan’s death. She revealed how till this moment, Sutapa opened the suitcase where she had put the medical files and read it every night to figure out, “Did I do something wrong? Every day, night, and evening while he was getting treated, he would refuse to have a nurse or anybody else to take care of him.”
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She recalled, “When we got to know each other, there were no symptoms. There were no symptoms and as usual, he leaves for his shoot but there was slight uneasiness on his stomach and they got some tests done. They said ok and get some more tests done and tests test tests… So it all happened within say 15 days. And in 15 days, we came to know that it’s an advanced stage of neuroendocrine cancer.”
Sutapa also went on to state that both she and Irrfan were very different individuals. While Irrfan was a night person, she was a day person, which meant that they often ended up sleeping in different rooms. But the last two years of Irrfan’s life were different for both of them.
“Two years we were sleeping on the same bed when I didn’t know we would not do it again. In two years, he said for the first time that he loves me. (I remember) He was in complete pain so he gestured. So even though he is gone, I know he is around, especially at nights, if it’s raining, or his favorite book falls, I know he’s around somewhere,” Sutapa concluded.
All about his death
The ace actor died due to neuroendocrine cancer on April 29 2020 at the age of 53, two years after his diagnosis was made public knowledge. He was undergoing his treatment in the UK for a year and was admitted to a Mumbai hospital, just a day before his death, as he suffered a colon infection.
In a recent interaction with another new portal, Sutapa revealed the shock they felt after the diagnosis and how the actor responded to treatment well before his health deteriorated. She revealed that when he was diagnosed, he didn’t have any symptoms and only slight unease in his stomach. He was to leave for his shoot.
Due to the unease, some tests were performed, and soon, that went on and more tests happened. Sutapa added that it all happened within a span of approximately 15 days and then they knew the diagnosis of the advanced stage of neuroendocrine cancer.
Sutapa went on to say that Irrfan wanted to go through a more holistic approach to treatment instead of chemo. She is still coping with his death and tries to protect herself now, she keeps on reading his medical files, wondering if she did anything wrong. She stayed by Irrfan’s side while he was being treated since he refused anybody else by his side.
His son Babil will soon be making his Hindi film debut with the Netflix feature Qala. However, the late actor-husband-father is survived by his wife Sutapa and their two sons, Babil and Ayaan.
Irrfan and Sutapa met in 1984 during the auditions for the National School of Drama and were married for 25 years until Irrfan died in 2020.
