15 days of the month I am at my peak and for another 15 days I am struggling for work Â
When I took that decision at that step to be a single mother, at that point you always feel that the whole world is crashing on your head and how are you going to manage. I think that’s a very normal human reaction.
Trust me even to date we hearsay chill you are a woman, you cannot do it. you may their tongue for saying it.
Over the years I have changed quite a bit, I have to say that television has helped me evolve a lot. For every grey hair, I feel I gained that much wisdom, I gained that much more stability in life, that much more happiness and loves.Â
The kind of confidence, the kind of carefree attitude or career damn attitude that you had when you were younger you don’t have it happen when you are in your 40s you are far more cautious.Â
I have always said that I have says it back then I say it now I will say it. I don’t know it sounds repetitive but I have always said that I would rather be known as sexy and spicy or all of that than being known as dull and handy.
Whatever I like that I mean and I have always been known like that. I am a very feisty person by nature so honestly, it is not a conscious thing to me because I have been termed as ok she is hard oh she is sexy and I have got to I have to live up to that standards. Â
I do not believe in that, I just feel that it’s part and parcel of the person that I am. I mean there are days where I can be just the opposite of being supposedly sexy 30 days in a month, you don’t particularly feel amazing.
I say 15 days of the month I am at my peak and another 15 days of that month I am struggling because all women are going through some hormonal or whatever she is phasing. So those 15 days I am struggling at 15 otherwise I am good to go. Â
Sometimes t feel that I am not optimistic and I am the kind of person that needs to be doing things all the time I cannot sit still, I am very active and I am an overactive person, even everybody has to tell me that it is okay, so calm down and chill. It is all right there so taking a deep breather.Â
There was the 90s era when people say many things to me. I think sometimes it is very insulting because people use to think that you don’t have a brain or cannot be a thinking person, I don’t think it’s true.
I think that all those stereotypes have changed over period gone are the days when we are considered as second-class citizens or not the male around.
So yes, I think all of that has all those nations have kind of changed over the years. Women are ruthless and better than ever. So, I guess maybe I must have said it back then probably because that is how I felt and I feel the same way today.Â
Every still now there is a lot of disparity, of course, a lot of it has changed or it is visibly seen that it has been changed back then past.
I mean basic things like a woman always given second billing pay parity or we always live in a hero dominated industry and all of that things but I have also said that I also have to give credit to the fact that all the work that I have done in the business in the film industry which has given so much of love and respect.
I have worked will amazing women as well and they have made sure that we stand out or we have been given that platform. I also had the privilege to work with heroes or with male who has given a lot of push that never made me feel different.
Edited By: Kiran MaharanaÂ
Published By: Shramana Sengupta